I have now gone through week 4 of my treatment, however this week was not what I was expecting. After having a radiation treatment and my lab work done on Monday it was discovered that my white blood count was too low to administer chemo. Not only no chemo this week, but radiation had to be stopped because they were going to give me Neupogen shots to boost my white blood count.
I have not felt very good this week and for the first time I was unable to swallow my daily medications. Now I have to crush up the pills I am unable to swallow and administer them through my feeding tube. We were able to find vitamins and pain medication in liquid forms, which helps a lot.
Today I am feeling good and I am going to have an ear test this afternoon. One of the side effects of the chemo is hearing loss, so they want to see where I am today and I’m sure after all of this is done I will have another hearing to test to compare.
The good news is that my blood counts are back up and I will resume chemo and radiation next Monday. A couple of other praises, 1) my ear pain is gone. 2) I have a stronger voice today.
I finished the book my cousin Belinda sent to me called “Kisses from My King” and it was well worth the read. The author’s cancer was a different kind than mine, however there are a lot of similar feelings and emotions that cancer patients have and I could relate to where she was. Many of the scriptures that she used are the same ones that I cling to. However, there was one verse that stuck in my heart and I have committed it to memory this week.
11 You will show me the way of life,
granting me the joy of your presence
It is difficult for people to understand that during a tough circumstance how anyone could find joy and pleasure. God promises his children that no matter what we are going through that 1) he will be there with us and 2) that we have the eternal hope of heaven. Those two things are the source of joy and pleasure.
Everything in the world is temporal. Even our bodies are temporary with souls awaiting the promise of an eternal life with God. Our joy and pleasures will never be found eternally in the temporal stuff of this world. Jesus really is the only answer to our life. He is the way, the truth and the life!
Tyndale House Publishers. (2013). Holy Bible: New Living Translation(Ps 16:11). Carol Stream, IL: Tyndale House Publishers.